3-1-09

well kalef just left.

It was cool, we were watchin one missed call and it was scary, so i started kuddling up with him... it was a little strange though, because kim was watching and maria was sitting on the same couch lol.

Well anyways, when he had to leave i walked him out and we hugged, and then he was so cute and asked if it was ok with me if he kissed me ... lol .... and then we just kinda went for it ...

it was good :)

and just right now he texted me that he hopes we can keep on doing that . I said yes, but i dont know whats going on, i mean i guess were just hook up buddies but i think it will turn into dating ... hes not a hook up guy ....

uh and this might sound really bad, but it would be really cool, if it was just hooking up, because then i could get with stefan ... but that would be really mean and bitchy ... bah i was just thinking, i mean hes hot too. And last week he just like picked me up over his shoulder and carried me around ... and he kept on pinching my leg ... and hes hot ...

uh i really need to shut up and at least try to appreciate kalef. I mean hes like out of a movie ... perfect somewhat ...

ok ill see him in school tomorrow. I hope he wont expect me to eat lunch with him or so, i mean im really not wanting to not sit with the stoners ... they are way cool ....

uh i need to remember to take some pictures of countryside and school and so....

ok well i guess thats it ... just updating lol

3-2-09

uh , everything is cool.

Kalef is so cute. He didnt kiss me today, i think he was intimidated ... he never wants to push me into anything, its so sweet ...

He was telling me all this stuff, and then he said, he was just tryin to make up excuses so he could kiss me .... i was all like ... ok ... and he asked if he had to have excuses, said no ... so well see whats gonna happen.

The c team guys were bugging me today, and he went there and told them off ... it was awesome, he threatened to kick their asses if they didnt leave me alone. They think were going out now, but thats just fine with me ...

its funny how the prep guys accepted me, just because they heard k and me were hooking up ... thats strange ... hate that clique issue, its stupid ... i mean, being judged just because of ur clothes, thats just ridiculous ... somewhat its understandeable, i mean richer kids, richer clothes, all together , ... but i wear what i want and then i belong to ... whatever. I dont even know and i dont care ...

well i met shawn today ... katies so in love with him. I think hes really good for her, so i told her that, and she thinks it means a lot .... its funny how everything seems to work out for everyone, except maria.

Idk i really dont wanna be mean, but i think shes a drama queen. I mean, everything could be so easy ... but she has to make it complicated ... dont get me wrong, i love her to death, but shes just being strange sometimes. She tells different things to certain people, just because she wants them to think shes like that and that, when shes really not ...

i hope coming to germany will help her to realize that she doesnt have to change for anyone ....

oh and today, something funny happened ... i mean, everybody knows that i usually constantly blush ... not today... its strange and cool ... and strange lol

on wednesday, im gonna have a meeting with mr ferguson, to talk about being a history teacher. Hes down, the only problem is he never shuts up. Youll ask him what time is, and hell go on forever about whats new. Whatever, we all love fergie ...

well, thats it for today ... stay chill .... :)