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I cant believe myself right now.
We just got home from the game in tucumcari and at the bus matthew kept on texting me about hooking up. I was really bored so i eventually said yes. So when i got done seperating the jerseys, he texted me, meet me in the gym, and i was all like, do i really wanna do that, and then i realized that i truly dont care. So i went there and we made out for a little bit, and then i kinda just walked away. I mean it wasnt that he was a bad kisser, its just that i have absolutely no feelings for him. I thought that i could like him, i mean he can be really sweet when he wants to, plus hes cute, but i dont. So i dont know what im gonna do when i go to practise on monday, i guess everybody will know. Somehow i prooved all of those stupid rumors right, and that sucks. Oh yay, no i really am that slut everybody thinks i am. Im not! Bah high school is hell, i think it can kill people emotionally.
Anyways, i better prepare for some dirty looks, uh its gonna be bad...
ok so this is what else happened.
Christmas
we went to houston, it took us two days to get there, we spent the night at some motel three hours from there.
We stayed there for i think five days. Aunt dee, kims sister, has two sons, bio and sam, they are half black, their father is from nigeria, but dee and him, charles, are divorced.
Charles´ brother, dont remember his name, and his wife and son were there too. They were really nice and the wife was veeeeeeeerry pretty, purdy, in hick lol. We went to the rich peoples mall, it was really expensive, to a bad chinese restaurant, saw downtown houston by night and went to the normal mall. That was all, the rest of the time we spent at home, mostly eating.
The christmas dinner was really good, we hat truducken, turkey, duck, and chicken all together, mashed potatoes, macaroni and cheese, stuffing, beans, ham, plain chicken, turkey breast, and bisquits. I ate so much, i couldnt even move anymore.
We went home at the 28th, i think. We left really early in the morning, and we got there at nighttime, it think it took us about 14 hours maybe 15.
when we got home, mr paul mccartney was still alive, is was pumped...
newyears eve
we went to some friends house, i dont remember the names, and there was a party. It sucked because all the adults were playing drinking games and the kids were playing wii. Oh that was the part that didnt suck, it was fun. At twelve, i went outside, to do my amateur firework, as nobody else had planned one. My rockets were really small and quiet, and the rest was pathetic, too. I got really homesick that night, because i thought of all the shit that we could have done in germany, random.
Back in school
there was the bvc tournament, bean valley c i dont know ... we hosted it and it was a big deal. The jv lost the whole thing and sucked, the varsity were really good, they lost the championship game though and got second. It was a tight game, we lost by one point in overtime, cory missed the layup... but the best thing about the whole tournament was how we beat temples ass. Uh i cant stand those arrogant fuckers. Number 24 thinks he is so great, just because he dunks. All he can do is run the baseline. Coach called him a fuckin stupid jumpingbean, it was great. Well we beat them, and we kept him from dunking during the whole entire game, he got all hurt. It was crazy to see how the whole team got intimidated without him being the cocky center of their offense. That game was my highlight.
What was also great, was how i missed school during the week. It was easy to ditch, too, and teachers didnt even really care. I was just hanging out at the gym all day long, watching the games and chillin it was cool.
Finals
i did really good on my finals, the only subject i got a b was mrs tullys, and as its a weighted class that is the same as an a. My pga was 4.297, and a 4.0 is a b plus. So this is how it works. Each normal class has four, that is an a , if you have three, its a b, and so on. Every weighted class has five, but if you have a four, its still an a. So the average pga can be higher than the highest grade, i think its genious, makes me feel really smart lol.
Marias birthday, 17
was last week, i made her a white cake with lots of frosting on top, and a giant green peace sign, she almost started crying when she saw it. She was in a bad mood that day because rusty was being a dick and didnt get her anything, i mean he took her on a date but that was all. She was disappointed in him. I think she is right, i mean they have been dating for almost two years, he should have gotten her something nice, not big, but something that means something.
Well anyways, we had a birthdaydinner for her, it was crabs. It was crazy, we ate the legs, and we had to cut them open and get out the inside. It was the first time i ate crabs and i got the juice all over me... it was good, but it is something i dont wanna eat more than every once in a while.
Jella, the other german
decided she wanted to quit and go home. She made me mad and sad at the same time. I hate how she just quits. Shes running away from her problems. She came here to escape from her problems back home, somehow she gets obsessed with guys, she hates her stepdad, she thinks shes ugly, her friends are being dumb and not supportive, and she cuts herself. So she came her and everything seemed to be good, until she fell in love with that dumbass. He asked her out for homecoming and then just dumped her, without even really telling her that. He just started avoiding and ignoring and hiding from her. Thats so pre kindergarden, really. Well anyways, she was so madly in love with him, she got really depressed. From the beginning on, she also didnt get along with her hostsister very well, its completely understandeable, i mean that kid is a spoiled little brat. Somehow jella got so into her being depressed and selfpity, she was convinced, that everything here is bad. So she started cutting herself. She wanted to go home so she talked to me. I told her coordinator all about her, everything, to help her, but it didnt work. Today i found out that shes gonna leave tomorrow, but she didnt tell me, it was carolynn, the coordinator.
Whatever jella, i tried to help you and you kept on being stiff and stupid so i really dont care anymore, sorry.
Katie
is having problems down there, she says it hurts all the time and when shes having sex with her boyfriend, it burns really badly. She has had that for a couple of months now and somehow she doesnt realize how bad this can be. I mean if she doesnt go to see a doctor soon, she might not even be able to have kids later, who knows ...
i am really worried about her.
Sciclub
yesterday was the first day of skiclub, it was great, so much fun. I am better than i thought , i guess. We got up at five in the morning , got ready and we left the school at six thirty. We got there at about nine and our classes started at ten. My instructors name is pablo and he was pretty rude, but i guess its ok, patience is just not his thing.at twelve we had lunch, and after that, we were allowed to rum by ourselves. I had a lot of fun, but it was also really exhausting, so on the way back i didnt play catch the phrase like all the others did. This morning i got up and i am sore in the back of my left leg, thats all, i guess im lucky.
The next time is going to be next friday, im all excited about it...
i got a new date now for my flight home, fathers day, and i am gonna go on the berlin trip, im soooo happy about it.
Well i guess thats everything