... speechless

oh ...

ya i forgot to tell what happened yesterday when we went to kalefs to take pictures , his mom was all like, how expensive are international calls ... and she was all talking about how she was gonna find out about a phone company that has cheap calls to germany. they obviously think were gonna stay together when i leave. first of all, how is that supposed to work . theres an ocean in between america and germany....hello! and second off, what if i dont want that... from the very beginning i was sure that it was gonna last till im gone, no longer ...
idk what to tell them, i dont want his parents and him to think im such a bitch and it was just a game ... i mean that would be messed up ... i thought he knew it was gonna be over soon and now ill have to explain it to him ....
fuck

Prom

katie


new haircut

so yesterday was prom ....
got my hair cut and at 5 kalef came to pick maria and i up. then we went to tims and got him and ivonne.
we got to the hilton at about 7, and then the dinner was served. first a garden salad, then filet mignon on mashed potatoes with grilled onions and aspargus ... and desert three different cheesecakes ...
yummy ....
the dance was really nice ....
oh and lol it was really funny, tim and ivonne were trying all this stuff, so we did too ... kissing with ice cubes ... lol. its gooooood :)

well, after the dance we went to ihop with noah, ashley, maria, tim, ivonne and some other people ... had two pancakes ...
then we raced home against noah. kalef was driving his sisters dodge charger .... nice ....
we were sucking the helium out of the balloons that i stole from the dance, and it was really funny.
we got home about 230 ...

food ...

yummey !!!

Today ...

the blue ribbon bar ... pool



... hate the potatoes, love the chicken ...


our gangsta hallway ... juniors ...


dork


on our way to school


me just bein bored ....

tonight were gonna have tacos ... yummy ... i love tacos !!!!

went to school today .. it was only a half day, so it wasnt as bad ...
after school we went to the bar and then to the park ... it was 87 f or something like that, really nice ...

figured out pictures

duh ....

yummy .........................

Kalef

k .... that dumbass didnt wanna smile so i guess ill have to show u puppy dog picture ...
whatever ...

like the eyes ...
hate the hair ...

lol

<3

stuck in my little depression hole ...

ive been "sick" for like a half week now ... and i do feel kinda sick, ... but not physically... i dont know why im in such a bad mood, i guess im just totally fed up with this whole thing ...
i mean whats the point of going to school if ur not learning anything. these stupid education methods obviously dont work ... all these fuckin people are dumb ...
well anyways, i need someone to kick me in the butt, cuz it doesnt work if i try to do it myself ... i could try one more time, cuz this is retarded, me just stayin home and watching tv all day ...
ok im positive im gonna go to school , i havent seen my friends in forever ...well except for k ... i see him almost every day. . . i dont know, i was having doubts lately but i think thats just cuz my stupid down ... ill be fine i hope?
well anyways, the plans have been changed for the grandcanyon. were gonna fly to vegas and get on a guide bus. itll be so much fun :) and interesting too i hope lol ...
... well i gotta go do my stupid project for mrs walkers ... its soooo dumb so im really pissed ....

only a couple of days till prom, im excited.
k is gonna get his sisters charger, its hot, i already saw it. were taking tim and ivonne with us, so itll be fun. were gonna go eat there, filet pinon or something like that ... itll be good ... desert bar ...
oh and ill get a hair cut on saturday ... im thinking about just choppin it all off ... like a bob or something ... but idk i guess my face will look to fat haha. my mom looks good with it though ... i saw her this weekend, skype, it was awesome ...

peace

2 months left

i cant wait ...

life is pretty boring right now ... its just all going on and on forever ....
i miss everyone and i really wanna go home. ive had it ... but its only 2 more months and those are supposed to be over really quick ...

yesterday i went shopping and i bought a purse to match my promdress and shoes ... its so pretty ..
oh and i bought a camera, its so pretty and awesome ...
im really happy ...

well, im gonna have to go clean my room and do my luggage check , ill have to find out how much i can fit in my suitcases ...
tonight ill go have dinner with k family ...
i like em a lot ....

well, other than that everything is really boring ....

love yall

...

im in the worst mood possible. maria just makes me angry. its little comments that ruin my day. i know that i shouldnt be so sensitive about it, but ive been annoyed for so long that it doesnt take much anymore. and she still keeps on planning my days. i hate it. what if i had plans for this weekend. no, she decided were gonna go on a double date. shit. i dont want to ok. but she doesnt care. she is signing me up for school activities without even telling me and i find out by accident that my name is on the list. thats messed up.
i stayed home today because i really didnt feel good and i had an awful headache.
so now she came home and she asked me how i was doing. i told her better and that i took some more pain killers. and she says, well thats not healthy, taking medication when youre not even sick. every time i stay home sick and feel like crap she says something like that. it just makes me so oooo angry and i just wanna punch her in her stupid face!
oh!!!!
im in such a bad mood that not even kalef can make me happy and he doesnt know why im so angry. i cant tell him either cuz they are friends and if i start talking shit about her hell probably tell her and hello drama!
well i guess ill just vent with rachel and then make some other plans for this weekend. katie, rachel, ... chill ... i really dont wanna be around maria any more. she is in a bad mood constantly and then she gives me attitude without any reason and i just have to live with it ... bah.
and now k keeps bugging me about coming over tonight. and i tell him no, i really wanna go to sleep early i dont feel good, and he just wont accept that ...
i really need to get in a better mood ... just dont know how yet ... ill figure something out

Long day

This morning, at 9 am sharp, kalef came to take me to his uncles funeral. first we went to his aunts house, rita, she was his wife. then we went to the middle school cuz in the gym there was a ceremony. it took about 2 hours ... it was crazy, i didnt even know that guy, but im sure that i would have liked him ... right before the ceremony started i met the entire family ... kalefs mom has eight sisters ... and they have all grandkids ... so it was crazy so many people ... they liked me so that was cool, cuz i was a little nervous if they were gonna like me ...
then the imediate family went to the cemetry to say goodbye. it was really sad, everybody was really crushed and sad. after that, we went to the christian center, to have lunch ... kalef and me left for his house to watch a movie .. we watched die another day ... it was really chill, nobody else was home . . . then when we started to watch batman, his mom, dad and sister came home. we decided to go to bella notte for dinner. it was really nice, i like his family ...
lol i was telling them about the negrettes, and it was really funny, cuz kalefs dad remembered having tommy in court, speeding or something like that ...
after dinner, kalef took me home and then we went back into town, cuz he was gonna stay for a movie. we went to the store and then we saw terrance. he had taken waynes death pretty hard, so he was drunk ... we just kinda picked him up and took him with us . . . poor kid, he was really crushed ...
well anyways we got the mist ... the end was horrible, i hated it. stupid movie ... gotta watch texas chainsaw massacre now ... uh jah!
well that was today, it was long, but fun ... im really surprised, im still not tired of hanging out with kalef ... normally i get annoyed if i spend time with the same people all the time, perfect example maria ... but not him ...
oh talking about maria.
she really likes borrowing my black lacy shirt ... thats fine with me as long as she gives it back clean. after she had worn it the last time, she hand washed it and gave it back to me ... i just put it in my closet and thought that deal was done. yesterday i was thinking about what i was gonna wear for the funeral, and i thought that shirt was perfect. so i take it out of my closet, and there is big fat stains all over the place. i got really upset and put it in the washer, on delicat, cuz obviously hand washing it was not enough. this morning i was gonna hang it up real quick so i could wear it. but i couldnt find it. turned out that nobody knew it was in there and they just did another wash. then maria started giving me attitude about putting the shirt in the washer . that really pissed me off, i mean if she stains my shirt and then doesnt clean it right she does really not have to give me attitude about it. i figured that starting a fight wasnt worth it so i just kinda let it go, but it pissed me off ...

overwhelmed ....

well a lot is happening right now.
kalef just told me he loved me ... wow. thats a little early, right? i mean its only been a month or two ... i didnt know what to say so i told him i loved him too ... uh thats strange ...
i mean i knew that i was starting to like him a lot, but im not sure about the whole love thing. well see ...
his uncle died a couple of days ago, hes a wreck, he doesnt sleep a lot and hes sad ... i asked him if he would like me to come to the funeral tomorrow, he is really happy about that he says i make him happy and it will be easier ... im a little nervous though, i mean ive never met any of his family and than its the worst occasion possible ... funeral ... o.o ...
i havent been to a funeral in years, i think the last time was when i was 7 or so ... i think its catholic, i mean half of kalefs family is catholic ... ill be fine though, im positive.
he came over tonight and we were watching nick and norahs infinite playlist. it was ok but i was destracted ... lol
i am really hatin softball, ill try to get out of it ... need to think about that one ...
yah ill write more on sunday or so, gotta get to bed now ...