sick thoughts ...

not really sick thoughts, but i am sick and i did some thinking, so yeah. First off, i am MONK ....

Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a mental disorder most commonly characterized by intrusive, repetitive thoughts resulting in compulsive behaviors and mental acts that the person feels driven to perform, according to rules that must be applied rigidly, aimed at reducing anxiety by preventing some dreaded event or by resolving a more nebulous sense of tension. However, the likelihood that a dreaded event will occur, or the causal relationship between the performance of compulsions and the reduction of this likelihood, tends to be imagined or exaggerated.

o.o. Coach was right ....
this may seem strange to people that only know me as the messy person that hates to clean her room. well i have changed, i clean my room every day, i hate dust, animal hair, things just lying around .... and i love the way a carpet looks when its vacuumed ... oh ... and whenever i am at managing, everything has to be the same handwriting, the office has to be cleaned, the jerseys have to face the same direction ... ohhhhh i really am monk ....
well i guess as long as i dont exaggerate it itll be fine ... but people think im crazy now ... i mean i was running around in the hallways trying to find a janitor ... i found one, and borrowed his vacuumcleaner ... then i vacuumed coaches office. cj came in and he dropped some chips on the floors, so i freaked out at him .... kalef had to calm me down ...
thas not good ...
but anyways, love it or fuck off .. fine then, i have ocd, whats the big deal ....

:)
love yall