2-24-09

So yesterday i got the package from germany. Started sobbing for about an hour. There was so much stuff in there and it was all so sweet and cute. I didnt know that they liked me that much ... bah i ate all the gummibaers and all the chocolate within five minutes, no kidding.

Got homesick for today, but tomorrow it will be ok again i guess.

166 days left until departure. Cant wait and dont want to at the same time. Crazy, aint it ...?

i dont know if i talked about kalef, k , yet. Ill check later. Well anyways, he keeps on being so sweet and all that, he really likes me. Strangely. On saturday we had a movie night and we were watching quarantine and midnight meat train. Kuddeled all the time. Was nice. Am planning on doin it again. .. so k went to pennsylvania to visit his sick grandpa, miss him ... uh im really not in love with him, but i do care about him, so i dont know, i think hes trustworthy ... and he lets me drive his truck, and thats fun.

Then matthew i dont want anymore, loser.

Have been talking to jerry lately, he keeps on asking me if he can call me, and he says all kinds of stuff, but i wanna see how its gonna be with k first.

Maria told me, nicky asked him if we were hookin up, and then he was trying to start a fight. That kinda cool .... i know that sounds bad, but its cool.

So i guess, whenever things dont work out , i still have jerry as a backupplan. The thing is just, that he is stupid. Just his brain, he isnt very bright ... but thats good on the other hand, it means i can play him easily. Uh that sounds even worse, everyone, i am not like that, i am just really honest right now.

Then stefan, uh hes hot, but he just does hook ups. So i guess sometime maybe. I was texting him and he asked me if i liked him, i told him no, but ur hot, and he asked me if i would hook up. Said yes and he said yes too ... so sometimes i see him in the hallways and we flirt a little, but i dont really think anything is going to happen, i mean, i dont know, were both just teases.

Thats that about the boys lol, whatever ....

uh just right now there comes this song to my mind .... hello little boys, little toys ....

uh how truthful. That sounded bad again .... whatever

HUGE news.

Maria is gonna come visit me in summer. For about 4 weeks. Two weeks of school, then bike tour and then my dads and my grandparents house. Btw, havent heard any bad stories about his girlfriend, so i guess they are workin it out. .. well anyways, its gonna be great, i wanna party like fuck when maria comes, she will hopefully never forget it. Uh, when i come back, ill be able to buy stuff, yay, thats awesome.

Today we had a game, district tournament, against east mountain, the emo town, how i like to call it .. we won ... but we didnt play our best, jorge was sick, troy still has problems with his ankle, and the others idk ... but anyways, theres gonna be another game on thursday and then saturday, and then itll be done.

Then, right after basketball, softball is gonna start. Idk yet if itll be as much fun, because its the girls and as everyone knows, theres gonna be bitching and stuff. I like the boys better, they are much less complicated.

Well i hope ill be able to talk to thi and everyone next sunday, theres so much to tell and talk about ... till then, peace out ...

the day after valentine´s day ...

first off, i forgot to say this in the last post, it was not the making out with the guy, lol, it was his girlfriend ... yah i guess im the other girl now ... kinda cool though ...
ok this is whats new ... maria and rusty broke up for good now, so shes getting with vince, and he wants me to get with his best friend kalef, so i started texting him ... idk hes really sweet and he tells me that i look amazing and all that, but somehow that connection isnt there, found that out yesterday ...
well and then i was trying to get with john, but idk about that, hes ignoring me, so probably not ... damit, its not like theres anything better than me out there. it makes me angry. i mean hes the fucking hottest guy ever and he wont even look at me... ok i take that back, i guess the hottest guy is jorge. but hes a dickhead and he just wants to fuck me .... oh and then there was jerry, eduardo and cory were trying to hook me up with him, but i didnt want to at first, well yesterday at the valentines dance, he was there with a girl, which made him more sexy lol. so i went there and started flirting with him, i guess somethings about to happen. the only problem was, that i kinda ditched kalef for him. its not like we were on a date, i went with maria and he went with vince, but maria and vince were making out, so that kinda left me and kalef. danced with matthew, nicky, kalef and vince, oh and jerry, so nothing new. what was new though was jorge trying to get me to go to his party. Fuck, i wanted to go, but he would have tried to make a move. it kinda funny how he wants to fuck everything blond wearing a really short dress lol. i mean normally he doesnt even look at me ...
oh yeah and then i was looking for nicky, and his friends told me he was behind the curtain, shit i should have known better, but i didnt suspect anything, so i went to look, and there were two people lying on the floor, twisted into each other, making funny noises. damn, i was shocked....
the funny thing is is that when maria and me were dancing, she went down and up on me, and that teacher came and told her, not to do that, because it was gross. haha what do they think two girls are gonna do? honestly, telling us to dance less dirty, but not realizing that the sophomores are doing i dont even wanna know what behind the curtain. haha
well i did have some fun yesterday, but i wasnt even buzzed, so it was lame. katie and me had some bacardi hidden in her car, but her mean sister found it and drank it by herself ...
oh and before, kalef, derek, lt and me were planning on just getting drunk at the dance, but it didnt work out ... so no alcohol for anna, fuck.
well today, me and maria are gonna go to rachels , and im gonna get stoned yay! its about time, ive been planning on doing that for so long!
its not like im gonna turn into a stoner now, but trying stuff is ok, right?
well i think thats about it ...
happy after valentines day!