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i was talking to thi today, oh and thomas and viet .. and i was trying to talk to chris but he wouldnt answer .. fine then ... i dont miss u either .... bäääääääääääääääh .... im hurt. seriously.
thi made me cry , well not really, but yeah ... i wanna go back sooo bad ....and i was talking to my mom and ludi ... shes really stressed out and im kinda worried ...
well spring break has started ... i didnt realize i was gonna have to go to practise during break too. it sucks ... I WANT A LIFE !!! i guess its gonna be ok i get the afternoons off so i can do stuff ...

kalef came over this afternoon. he stayed till like 11 or so. it was really funny we were watching twilight ... i dont think its a great movie. well i like the way it is made, everything is kinda dark and mysterious but other than that its really not that great. and i think the books were a hundred times better .... well anyways, kalef was so cute, we were cuddeling on the couch and he had his hand on my hip and somehow my shirt slid up my hip a little and he was bein all shy and put it back in place. lol hes afraid i dont want him to touch me ... ok so were goin out but ur not gonna touch me? lol. so i texted him and asked him why and he said hes afraid i wont like it. damn, im makin out with u all the time and ur concerned that i dont like u to touch me ... ? ... but i think its cute that hes so worried all the time .. allthough id like him to take charge too ... cant help it its just hot ...

oh u know whats also hot .... cars ... shit everyday i see one i really really want.
i better get me some old millionaire soon ... i need money lol ...

i had a really long talk with mark today about maria and how she was hurt with me and all that. i mean, im really tryin to be a nice person but thats hard sometimes, and seriously, who can always be nice and sweet and all that ... im just human, damnit! ... ill get over it lol, talking helped ...

well tomorrow im gonna have to be at practise by 8 45 ... putting stats in the computer ... and then maybe in the afternoon kalef is gonna come over, but idk yet. i kinda wanna do something with rachel ... get drunk or stoned or so ... something fun ...
but shes probably doin something with tommy ...
talking about them ... i cant believe that theyve been goin out for 3 years ... i mean ... 3 YEARS ... thats intense. id get so bored and annoyed. but she really loves him so thats different i guess .. but isnt it crazy to meet someone in 8th grade and stay with them and plan to have a life together ? ... wow