shit

so yesterday my hostmom found out that i want to change. this is what happened, the chief called to talk to me, she picked up the phone and he told her thinking she already knew. so she came in my room and said, the chief wanted to talk to me, and i could tell from the look on her face, that she knew. so i went to the phone and talked to him, and basically what he said was that i have to tell tommy, to still respect them and stuff and that he can have me moved by thanksgiving. he says he has to make a backroundcheck and have an interview with my new family, marias, by the way. so after i talked to him, i tried to talk to laverne, but she was just smiling at me with that strange mean smile of hers and so i was totally insecure. also, i didnt want to say anything that would upset her, so i said, the situation was not right and that i am sure that they are great hostparents for ilyas but just not for me. she was all like, there is no situation, what are you talking about? so i just said sorry one more time and went away. in my room i started packing and cried ... man its so hard, to be in this house, knowing exactely, that she hates me and that ilyas is there pretending he doesnt see me and so on.
well anyways, im just gonna be so happy when im outta here, i cant stand it. i hate the whole atmosphere, the coldness and stuff. this sounds so melodramatic but its true...

so today we had carreer day, it was mostly boring, except from the ladies from the fbi and from the chef, he basically said that its an easy life and you make a lot of money... so im thinking bout that haha

well i guess thats all